Mark 9: 2-6
Six days later, Jesus took with him Peter and James and John, and led them up a high mountain apart, by themselves. And he was transfigured before them, and his clothes became dazzling white, such as no one on earth could bleach them. And there appeared to them Elijah with Moses, who were talking with Jesus. Then Peter said to Jesus, ‘Rabbi, it is good for us to be here; let us make three dwellings, one for you, one for Moses, and one for Elijah.’ He did not know what to say, for they were terrified.
Reflection by Duke Yaguchi
Jesus went up the mountain with a purpose. Although the disciples were a selective and small group, Jesus took a subset of them with him up the mountain. He wanted witnesses but not too many. He knew something was going to happen. He may have even known that God was going to anoint Him. He knew He wanted to keep it a secret. Too few disciples and perhaps no one would know or believe. Too many disciples and the secret may leak out and it may change the future sequence of events.
If I were one of the three disciples chosen to witness Jesus' transfiguration, I would be terrified too. What happened? What does it mean? Were Elijah and Moses ghosts? What did they say to Jesus? My head would be spinning, and I wouldn't know what to do.
I read the last sentence as, Jesus did not know what to say, for His disciples were terrified, and He didn't want to scare them further. Jesus had to have guessed that the disciples would be afraid of what they had seen. Yet He is at a loss for words, at least for a moment. Let's face it, Jesus has a lot to process as well.
When we are faced with something of great magnitude, let's be gentle with ourselves. Sometimes it's okay to not know what to say.
Dear Lord, when I pray, I have to listen for your response. If I don't hear anything, I must remain patient and vigilant for your answer. Perhaps it is delayed because you are taking in so many factors, you don't know what to say yet. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.