10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.
Devotion by Laurie Spencer
I believe the only way to know Jesus is to engage in a relationship with him. And having a relationship with Jesus teaches me to be more like him.
That has been easy for me to do in times of sorrow. I leaned on him during my divorce. I invited dialogue with him when I needed help quitting smoking or raising Charlie alone. I ask him now to stand by me as I negotiate the rough waters of a painful relationship with my elderly mother.
In happy times I praise the glory he shines inside my life. Every time I step into a landscape design customer’s yard, I ask for his presence. And every time I leave a customer’s yard, I thank him for the power of the Holy Spirit that guided my work. I celebrate the blessings Jesus has given me. My amazing girlfriends. My awesome brothers. The incredible blessings of health and recovery that have been bestowed upon me in the last 18 months.
But there are gaps in this essential dialogue. These are times I forget to engage in this primary relationship. I’m human and fallible and distracted. In these times I run on the assumption that I can handle life on my own. It’s a bit like running the car with the fuel light on. I’m going forward, yes. But I’m going forward with the knowledge that this might not end well.
Simply put, it’s just not a fulfilling practice to conduct m